I feel like I'm breathing through wet wool. I'm tired of coughing. Every exhale is an imminent cough. I can ignore the tickle for awhile, but then the urge to cough overpowers and my back & neck muscles tense up and the cough racks my body.
It's at times like these that I think of making my life easier. I barely have enough energy to make it downstairs, much less cook breakfast. And then, during one of my many naps today I dreamed that I was in WalMart. (For the record, I hate WalMart with a passion. The one here smells mildewy and most things are made in Vietnam or Korea. And I don't really want to fund the Sam Walton family's life.) At any rate, I was actually shopping at WalMart in my dream. So, when I woke up, I went. We needed bread anyway, and it was right there. UGH. If I wanted to make life easier though, I would go there. It wasn't as bad as I had remembered. (they've remodeled, and the smell isn't there anymore.) It was crowded, but every grocery is on Saturday anyway. The thing that struck me was the prices. It really was cheaper. If I wanted to relax my standards a bit, I could probably save an awful lot of money by going there on a regular basis. BUT... It is important to me to support my locally-owned businesses. I like knowing where my money is going. I like to know that some of my money will be reinvested in the community, somehow, someway. Yes, some of my money that I spent at WalMart today will go into the pockets of those who work there. Small comfort.
I really enjoy the small business owners I know. (Linda, Laura, Scott, Aura, Janice, John, etc) And I give them a lot of credit for doing what they do. It is worth a few more dollars to support them and reinforce that sense of community.
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Just finished reading The Bone People by Keri Hulmes. Beautiful, poetic, and stirring.
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That's not mildew - that's the smell of poverty, sadness, and crushed dreams. There are more important things than saving a few dollars - like keeping one's soul intact. I wish we had more small shops in Jackson.
By the way - finally started reading the Obernewtyn (spelling? Who knows...) books - half way through the second one and loving it. :) Thanks!!
I am so with you on Wal*Mart.
I was at Menard's yesterday and they had full-sized shovels and rakes for $2.59. Made in China, of course. So does one buy the shovel, saving at least $15.00 compared to another brand? Or remind oneself of the true cost of the shovel in the stripping of the rainforest for its handle, the carbon footprint of its travel, and the miniscule wages of its makers?
I lost a part of my soul.
Ohhh Lysne, I've had that shitty respiratory infection for six weeks now. It's just evil. Breathing through wet wool is exactly right -- and the muscle soreness too. I think this is the most sick I've ever been in my life. Not the sickest, but the most sick.
And those codeine dreams -- I have to say they're very entertaining. Mine have been like going to the movies every night. But my bottle is running low... I wonder how hard it'll be to get Dr. Feelgood to give me a refill.
Hope you feel better soon. Do take it easy.
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